I’d like to explore another type of equality; the one with ourselves. I think there is much more focus on equality with others than with self. What does that even mean; “inequality with Self”? Well, it might look like unfairness, being taken advantage of, or disrespected in some way. Seeing ourselves as equals when it comes to how we are treating ourselves, basically. When we don’t see ourselves as equal worth, we see the other as superior. There may be an assessment that we have few to no options to an abusive situation. And perhaps when we were children, that was the case.
Many of us are caregivers, mothers, helpers, givers of many sorts. And some of us have conditioning from home and upbringing that carry undertones of limitation, obligation and judgement. Others may have been influenced by social settings, school, tv, etc. In our current stage of life, when we want to fully express who we are and our highest potential, the old patterns and effects of conditioning can feel limiting, frustrating, and keep us feeling stuck. In this group, we have created a collaborative container of safety, compassion and acceptance. Choosing safe and supportive environments is a sign of personal power and worth. So if you are willing to explore this a little further together, let’s see what we can find.
I was molested as a child. My perpetrators were my father, a clergyman in my place of worship and the family doctor. All positions of great authority. There was trauma for me. I felt unsafe, invalidated, and disrespected. And there was no real accountability for my perpetrators. In fact, socially it was acceptable to “inappropriately touch” a girl or woman. And women were ridiculed for objecting to it and “taking it the wrong way”. Think for a moment about what that message was. During a time in our personal development when we are most trying to make sense of our world. Is it any wonder that I have a hard time speaking up when a colleague treats me as though they are entitled to whatever is on my desk, or to change the arrangement of my employment compensation, or when I feel unsafe in my relationship? No, not too far off from what we are “used to”. There’s no shame in this being the case. There is support in sharing our experiences among those we trust and can also learn that we are not alone!
The truth is there is a certain point in our development when it is not supportive to expect or hope to be rescued. Sometimes our life circumstances create so much pressure that we are forced or choose finally to stand up for ourselves, to be our own champion, to draw a line and say “no more”. That my friend, is a sign of LIFE! To treat yourself as equal might mean being a disruptor, there may be differences of opinion with friends and family, and you may show more of your true authentic self. I say, GOOD, and there’s no need to apologize for it. We have every right to claim sovereignty over our body, lives, time, etc. And when we take ourselves seriously, then others may too. (Consider Law of Attraction as it relates here.)
Another sign of life is an increasing sense of awareness about inequality, frustration with it and anger too. These are parts of ourselves that are waking up and letting us know about something that is not okay and needs our attention. If we feel discomfort and feel old patterns of conditioning come up we may be tempted to tamp down those feelings with compliance. But not for long.. The answer is always love. And healing comes from love.
Equality with Self includes maintaining a balance in our life. Things that keep us in balance are sleep, water, downtime or meditation, exercise, time with our circle of support. Those are basic needs and we would understand and respect them for others. But do we respect and protect them for us?
Beyond basic needs we have the right to pursue personal, spiritual, and career interests. I realize I have put my personal interests on the level of optional or luxury to help out a spouse or family member, even an employer. I perhaps assumed if I were of value the other person would treat me differently. That scenario is more inline with a rescue though, right? And rescue leads to dependency. I am interested in right-relationship, collaborative loving relationships based in authenticity. I am willing to invest myself in regenerative practices in all contexts. And I realize it will require some learning how to do things differently. It will be messy sometimes. And it is a process so it will take time
Limits to Receiving?
If you were given the choice between surviving and living abundantly, which would you choose? We might all choose abundance, of course! But do we choose abundance in our day to day life? Turns out most of us have some form of conditioning that we are not conscious of that causes us to be reluctant to “take too much”, or we feel undeserving of the best/our desires, or perhaps we have judgements that that would be selfish. Where did that originate? There could be many influences but if we look to Nature, in its natural setting we often see pure abundance. Plants that fruit whether they are trees, shrubs, or vines; waste fruit due to abundance! When a plant goes to seed, there are millions of seeds generated! Nature is designed to be abundant. So perhaps “abundance” is part of our true Nature.
If you’re feeling open to living an abundant life now, how do you let the universe know that? How do you “ask” for what you want? Do you have a daily practice or less frequent? How do you personally identify what it is that you want to call in? Is it from a place of need, lack, pleasure, generosity…?Take your time reviewing these queries for yourself. But most importantly, what is your limit to abundance?
I have recently said yes to the exploration of this topic in my life; in a committed way. It seemed like the logical next step after surviving, And once I really looked at it, I found little barbed belief systems that had hard limits. For instance, I know people who seem to have a comfortable lifestyle, freedom to choose how and where they live, and perhaps anything they desire. But when I try to imagine that for myself I meet a great chasm. Something in my identity has limits that don’t stretch that far. When I look at my “heart’s desire” I feel like I need to whisper! What the heck?!
Stigmas around receiving include the idea that if we have abundance others have less. Truth be told, there is enough for everyone. All resources. Love in particular; has no end. In fact; the more you love, the more you love! What generosity would spring from you as you lived abundantly? Money is a resource like any other. It is neutral. I say “it’s math”. We put all of the meaning to it, judgements, beliefs, fears and desperation too. But it’s just math. We have many examples of philanthropy these days. And philanthropy isn’t limited to money either. It can be time, expertise, support, nurturing, etc. Where’s the limit? It’s how we think about it, feel it, and see it, that holds the limits. Somewhere in the mix of limitations to our receiving abundantly is something about disappointment, failure, and rejection perhaps. Could that be true for you?
So, do you know what your limit is to receiving? Can you feel too beautiful, too happy, too secure, or too prosperous? And if you called in abundance for yourself what could you create? Would others benefit from your example, your energy, your healing? I think we all benefit when any of us live abundantly regardless of how much money we have. Living abundantly from our awareness of the sacredness of life, air, water, earth, and love – in their many forms. They are usually the ones that are more calm, aware, and playful. That’s where I am headed. And I’m now healing all those little barbs I encounter along the way, one at a time.
What a gift to have the opportunity to explore this terrain and walk away with some real experiences as my internal reference to be used as tools going forward. I know the nature of being alive brings a variety of opportunities to practice awareness of my patterns in play, the choice point in response, and remembering my willingness which quickly re-centers me in alignment.
Be True to You
Recently, I’ve become more aware of how many of my friends long for community. Not a chat room of strangers who have time for quips and wit; but real connections with people who genuinely care and have shared interests and intentions. It reminds me of a workshop I took where all present participated in a meditation in order to connect with our individual deepest fear, which turned out to be the fear of rejection and being alone; for all 175of us. We all had the exact same fear! We are wired for connection. We are biologically programmed to be in relationships, tribes, and communities.
So often, life’s experiences can include feelings of pain and risk. And it’s natural to feel the impulse to protect ourselves – survival instincts are hard-wired on some level. And yet those instincts can disconnect us from people and opportunities we need or that would feed our growth and well-being.
Here’s a personal story to illustrate: Early in my life I experienced my home as unsafe. As a child I would just be outside, in the tree or hiding out with the dogs. I felt safe when I was alone. In the house, I would find ways to be undetected which I had deduced early on; as a way to be safe from harm or stress. Fast forward, now an adult; I often deal with the voices inside who still tell me to hold back, don’t stand out or stand up, don’t be big or bold because that makes me a target.
Recently at a workshop, from a place of benevolence I added the offering of “Tarot Readings” to a list of offerings being made within the group. Later realizing that as I stepped out of the sidelines and that I would potentially be “at risk”, my inner parts shared their discomfort with my offer. After some time with the “inner committee”, I followed through with my offering. I)or “we”) chose to be willing to show up, stand out, be open to new possibilities and to trust myself to respond to whatever came from that.
In this case, the result was so much more positive than I could have imagined. And I realize how easy it has been for me in the past to talk myself out of situations of “risk” (aka. opportunities for growth and healing). Our willingness to be seen and heard, with our “less-than-perfect” offerings are the very actions that extend permission to others to do the same. And together, one by one, we make up the families, tribes, and communities that exist in the world. And each time we choose to show up exactly as we are, we add to the conditioning of our make up in a supportive and self actualizing way. “To build confidence, one needs courage. To build courage, one needs challenge.”
“Allow yourself to be true to who you are. Do not try to hide your inner light and beauty. You are meant to be seen, Your soul is nurtured and protected by your love for the Divine.” – Alana Fairchild, Lolo, Earth Warriors Oracle
May we each recognize new opportunities not as risks but portals to new aspects of life! May we share our confidence and courage with each other as a means to balance and support those times when some of us need a helping hand or inspiration. May we add strength and beauty to our growing community of wisdom carriers!
Personal Independence
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I am in the afterglow of a much needed 5 day retreat focused in nature, beginning in silence, and moving into the inner realms of listening and deep rest. I met many aspects of my shadow and had an opportunity to practice presence in a beautiful and safe container. My tendency to respond to new social settings with reluctance to speak first and waiting to see how things go, to assess the situation was also present. With my awareness of this pattern, I then got to witness my own judgments about the pattern. And that I was holding expectations that I would be more at ease and in the flow, more trusting and open, and more self assured. There were many aspects of discomfort in one way or another, that illustrated how I generally respond. Suffice it to say my general theme is to protect my heart, or close it to some degree. All the while wanting connection with others that is heartfelt and authentic.
Supported by so many wise, mature people in this circle; I explored the practice of staying present rather than “protective” within myself whenever I was in some kind of edgy situation as often as I could manage. Authenticity is the goal, and is compromised when I edit or try to hide something I am not pleased about myself. Being aware of my vulnerability and allowing it to be present takes great courage. It was put to the test at one group exercise when we were asked to share what we don’t want others to know about us, for ten minutes! And the further instruction was to NOT prepare before our turn so that it would be live and spontaneous. Oh another edge! I really have consistently believed that preparedness is protection.
Remembering why I chose to come to this event, I did my best to show up as invited. After my share, I was visited by intense regret, criticism, and shame. Then I reflected on a comment I had heard earlier in the program about that role our mind plays. That it’s always going, coming up with dialogue and opinion. It was described like a “Labrador puppy” that sometimes you just have to say “drop it”. There is nothing that can be solved or benefited by my inner dialogue about my share and how it was or wasn’t; so I said to myself “Drop it!” and it went quiet for a bit. I felt calm again. And although much like a corrected puppy who drops the shoe we have caught them with, it was later picked up again a few times. Each time I said “drop it” and puppy training was in progress… And just like with a little puppy, there was no ridicule involved because we all know what puppies are like and don’t hold it against them.
In this intentional container I played with things like remembering my willingness and staying present using my breath to bridge the connection, and slowing down supports my listening. Listening to my body allows me access to infinite intelligence interested in my well being and happiness. In this way I can claim my sovereign role of co-creating my experiences in my life. This is the authentic empowered state I want to live in and have love be alive for me.
What a gift to have the opportunity to explore this terrain and walk away with some real experiences as my internal reference to be used as tools going forward. I know the nature of being alive brings a variety of opportunities to practice awareness of my patterns in play, the choice point in response, and remembering my willingness which quickly re-centers me in alignment.
Life is Miraculous
I’ve recently recovered from the flu and have a new appreciation for my body and the feeling of physical strength. I appreciate the wonders of healing – how miraculous a thing that is. As much as I adore being home resting and feeling the full permission to do so, I also felt the pangs of wanting to do things too! What an exercise in awareness, patience, and surrender it has been. Even now that I am better, tested negative last Sunday, my energy comes and goes in waves. First thing in the morning it comes in and is fully present and then by noon it has gone out again. Such a reminder of what I have control over and what I don’t. That we are a combination of biology and conditioning. My conditioning has told me that my worth is tied to what I do, produce, and create that has value to others. I have had conditioning added to that that says “I am innately worthy just by my being in existence, living and breathing.” I know that is true, but sometimes I drop into the old familiar pattern I grew up with and feel the pressure (I imagine is there) related to my keeping up with all of my “responsibilities”.
I recently read the book Siddhartha by Herman Hesse. It came to me as a gift from a somewhat chance meeting with someone I briefly met at an Esalen workshop. I was so touched that this person would go out of their way to send the book to me because they knew me enough to think that it would be meaningful, that I have been reading it a little each morning. It’s a classic, perhaps you’ve read it. If not, I believe it would be meaningful for you! The story takes us through much of the life of Siddhartha from the age of a young man to his elder years and like most of us, his life takes him through many different situations and life-styles. But in his later years he is inspired by the river to “see” himself in each of the very different people he was and then as the same person. I could relate to that. I’ve had many very different jobs like a glass blower, an assembly line worker stuffing printed circuit boards, and then as an owner of a computer leasing company in many roles. I’ve lived in different places, had my identity change with marriage and divorce. And then there’s the stages of ages! I have taken on so many different appearances over the years! And yet all of these “people” are me. It’s like training wheels for understanding oneness.
And Siddhartha lived his life from the inside out rather than living in accordance with what others expected. I was very taken by his example of tracking his inner calling and moving from that motivation; without condition. In addition, he offered the same to those he knew and loved. This caused me to reconsider the truth about control, obligation, and attachment. I have experienced struggle with all three of these and can see how this is true for so many folks depending on the conditioning they received growing up. Of course, and then there is more learning, more conditioning, and more opportunity to experience. Life is moving through us all the time. And we have desires, preferences, and we can affect change through our influences in many ways. But control? In my experience the effort and focus that I have invested in trying to do everything “right” has caused me at times to be rigid, impatient, and literally missing all the joy and pleasure that was within my reach!
In this moment I can reflect over my own various life experiences and relate to each iteration individually as well as see the oneness. Likewise, from that awareness I can see others similarly. It evokes compassion, patience, and deep peace in me. This potent time of year is supporting our seeing deeper truths more easily and quickly.
Those truths may be about the past or the future as we co-create our world together. But they are rooted in the present and grow from there. Being still is not the same as doing nothing; it has value and purpose. Listening is not the same as having no value to offer with words. Indeed, listening is one of the most powerful influences we have. And at the end of the day, it isn’t what we’ve said or heard that will change us but what we’ve felt. At least that’s how it seems to me, at this moment
We’re All Influencers
The energy for June ’22 is described as being very distilling, quick paced, and abundant with shifting of plans. This has been showing up in my world, how about yours? My plans are made for the day or week and then boom; stuff I didn’t anticipate come into play and I am adapting. Now, there was a time that I would have that experience of something blind-siding me and I would “adapt” by basically resigning to it having lost my self-trust or will to engage. These days, I have more awareness about the complexities of the world we are playing in, less often does it throw me out of wack and more often it fascinates me. After-all, we live in a multi-verse.
We are all influencers. We influence our health, perspective, energy; and the life around us too. So if we could actually see it, everything would be in motion, changing colors as vibration levels shifted, and each aspect of life influencing every other aspect. (No, I’m not using mushrooms!) Somehow many of us got the idea, that everything outside of us is static, constant, mostly unchanging; and we are in constant movement. With that perspective there is a tendency to assume weird things like; it will wait, it can stay the way it is.
I know a dog, who is ready to play at any moment day or night. She’s super smart – probably knows over 100 words now. My favorite thing to do is influence her. It might be as simple as locking her gaze and to have a mischievous look in my eyes and she gets the energy! She starts barking and jumping around like “I know you’re up to something. I don’t know what it is yet but I know you’re up to something!” I also practice calming her when sirens are going off and she is alarmed. Dogs are right there, present in each moment and so adaptive. But not resigned. Generally, you don’t see an animal “checked out” or mistrusting itself. They are engaged and paying attention even when we might think they aren’t. They don’t engage in self-sabotaging internal dialog either. (My Dog My Guru” for a fun book.)
Coming off of Mercury retrograde, which by the way is our window into ourselves rather than into the world outside us; we may have some recent “material” to reflect on related to this topic. Speaking for myself, my cell phone stopped working, my laptop, staffing coverage changed due to a personal injury, the shower, sink, and toilet stopped up at home! Oh, and when Bella returned from her senior school trip to Universal Studios she brought back covid. That’s right, she is missing her graduation because she’s covid positive! Which “influenced” many other things like sickness in our home, business coverage at the store, canceling social engagements, etc. She’s really doing well by the way, more like a bad cold in her case. And I have been fighting the good fight and winning, thank goodness! But, back to the point of staying engaged and adapting… When things do go awry, is when we need to keep our cool and stay agile, right? Well, for this month in particular! There is a high growth energy spinning things fast and we get to grow from the experience or struggle – our choice.
I’ve noticed that when I recognize my body tension or the sound of my voice in a higher pitch than usual and I just take a breath, feel my body wherever it happens to be in that moment, things slow down and I can see what’s beautiful, loving, supportive, and divine. I can also feel that I am a part of it! (Remember that poster from the 80’s? “God don’t make junk!”) I feel gratitude mixed in with the uncertainty or disappointment. I feel the divine presence of life taking a turn I didn’t expect. I remember that I am not in control – and it’s going to be okay. In fact, I remember it’s an adventure! Ah… yes. And we are sharing this dream with each other, right here, right now
Resistance is Futile
If you are feeling as though your emotions have been shifting in many directions, and your body seems to be achy or out of sorts; you are not alone! The month of May has delivered a mixture of intense energy to help move things that have been in place for some time. “Resistance is Futile” is a statement that comes to mind. Unrelated to how much you know or don’t know about astrology, healthy process, clear intentions – because we are all experiencing Life expressing through us.
And, it can be uncomfortable, challenging, illuminating, and wearing sometimes. So, in my case; I’ve been saying the Serenity Prayer quite often (God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can; and the wisdom to know the difference.), taking unscheduled timeouts in the middle of the day, noticing and allowing myself stillness rather than pushing through, and reaching out to teachers who are supportive, to help me use this energy for growth and healing.
The full moon on the 15th/16th invited us to recognize, acknowledge, and release our fears. In the Full Moon Ceremony circle I felt supported and witnessed in that purification process. And, once those fears were shifted, I was that much closer to the grief they were resting on!
Choosing to consciously dream, create and manifest things for myself I prefer and long for, has put me in touch with grief too. How long my dreams have been “M.I.A.”, on hold, and disassociated from me brings up an awareness that was tucked neatly away from my daily activity. Now it is squarely and clearly right in front of me!
Don’t get me wrong, I want to heal and know that feeling grief is actually a good sign – it means I can feel my heart and I’m touching into painful things that need tending. And, it’s still not comfortable. In other words, it needs respect, acknowledgement, space and accommodation. I want to stay authentic. And not say “Oh, I’m fine” as if I need to hide or disown my grief for my friends and loved ones to be more comfortable or for me to maintain an image of invulnerability.
I appreciate, that this is a shift in my family lineage. I realize it is a privilege, a luxury not afforded to my ancestors perhaps. And I appreciate that my choosing this “work” or path is benefiting those who came before me and those who will come after me whether I directly witness it or not. I know it!
So, if you are resonating with any of this share now or have ever had a similar experience, I invite you to be present with it; with yourself and with others in this group. I invite you to be willing to see it, feel it, and know that it is not the whole of who we are. We are witnessing not merging. We are loving not controlling. We are accepting what is and not resisting it. Our connection stronger, safer and more supportive as a result of our expanded truth
Group Dynamics & Self Awareness
I have been looking at my own patterns in response to discomfort. Primarily, psychological and emotional discomfort – the kind that comes up in the midst of conflicts and awkward stuck points in social settings when I feel injustice but am so thrown by it that I don’t know what to say and I hold my judgments about it, inside.
I recently had an experience in a social setting where one person dominated the dialog with opinions, projections and story. I felt like there was no opportunity for anyone else to speak! Yes, I had judgments about the behavior, and then I had judgments about my having judgements! I was so busy with the dialogue in my head that I basically seized up and felt very uncomfortable. My takeaway was “This is the wrong group for me.” Clearly I was not aligned with this environment.
After much time sifting and sorting this out for myself and speaking with a person I respect, who has much more experience with groups and their dynamics; it became clear to me that yes I was misaligned but it was primarily the result of my lack of skill and misplaced expectations. Let me explain.
My expectation was based on a belief structure that I wasn’t even aware of. I was operating with the perspective that others need to be aware of my needs and invite or allow me to express myself. From that perspective, what I was experiencing was “unfair”. From another perspective though, I could have identified as “equal” and used my voice to say what I needed or communicate what I was feeling in terms of myself or the group impact. Something like “Hey friends, I’m noticing the time and I’d like to hear from everyone.”
The personal work I’ve been doing with Internal Family Systems (IFS) is growing my familiarity with different parts of myself and seeing how these parts all have the goal of my survival. IFS is helping me find more space, peace, and in some cases; harmony. I see these different parts, perhaps the result of the long standing affects of “colonization”. The structure put in place long ago whereby an authority is established that determines the rules and grants others permission for things.It also requires a disconnection from the self/body/emotions in order to “fit in” or be acceptable.
My current interests are to transition to a culture of a healthy community approach. A community where all parts count, are listened to, allowed space to be without harsh criticism, hostile judgements. But instead cultivating a curiosity open to finding new and better ways of doing things focused on alignment and support of a thriving Life on this planet and in these bodies; with ourselves and each other.
The list of social injustice includes discrimination related to race, gender, age, religion/spiritual beliefs, politics, economic status, etc. Perhaps the reason the list is growing, reflects the influence of an increased consciousness resulting in free-speech, the internet, expansion of legal rights and their consequences; in short increased freedoms. Now more than ever, we need to find truly loving supportive ways to express what’s inside from a responsible, calm, and grounded place. We need to honor the truth coming from a connection to Spirit inside us; without the impulse to power over or withdraw.
I watched a video recording recently of a live zoom event dedicated to making a safe place for truth-telling and deep personal expression in the interest of education and healing. It was sobering, intensely heart felt and heart opening, and a beautiful model of techniques and use of words in holding space where repressed trauma and injustice has occurred. I have added the link (here) and ask that if this topic resonates with you even a little, that you set aside the 30 minutes to view it.
In summary, I see myself as a spirit having a human experience influenced by the world around me, ancestral grief, and a limited experience with the intricacies of my inner workings. As I increase my positive affirmations of I am enough, I trust myself, I love myself, I am wisdom, I am truth, I am authenticity; there is also surrender, humility and a need to slow down and listen. Listen to myself (or parts of self), and others – without acting quickly to fix or alter to fit my expectations
Saying “Yes” and Saying “No”
I’d like to talk about choices; saying “yes” and saying “no”. We make choices everyday. Some practical, some preferential; and perhaps some habitual. Personally, I am noticing patterns to my choices and exploring my motivations. I notice that I’m now willing to practice allowing open space in my day; to say yes to inspiration, reflection, more often than before and to feel a sense of purpose within that. I can see that so much of my choices have been without mindfulness and have come from an obligatory place of focusing on others’ needs while discounting my own.
Now, I feel a redirection internally aligned with love. Love for myself and others. As my focus shifts my perspective away from obligation I also see a habitual fear response to trusting that love will come my way. It is not a conscious choice. I often don’t know it is happening in the moment but recognize it later with reflection. As I remind myself of the present moment, my breath, the earth beneath my feet, and my connection to Spirit, God, Great Mystery, my higher Self; there is more space available for me to “be” in. Looking at my options from that place feels so different! From that spacious place inside myself I feel an endless capacity to love, no limits, no fear, no time constraints – just a fluid network of love.
Let’s Thrive Together
I am grateful for the opportunity to consider care-fully the ways in which I shape my daily experience; my choices. I have begun learning about my internal world and characters with the Internal Family Systems model and have been humbled by the directness and complexity that is in constant motion. Who’s “I” am I looking through when I experience an interaction? I am interested in learning the distinctions between my inner (overwhelmed) 12 year old and other parts inside; who look out for me when I am unable or unwilling to show up for myself. I want to reconcile the discord within myself and step into the full measure of my right to choose. (No Bad Parts, by Richard Schwartz) This personal work is allowing me to understand myself at a deeper level, open direct communication and reconciliation within for greater ease and wholeness.
In line with this exploration, I am very moved by another approach; Essentialism (book by the same title by Grep McKeown). As I read through the book, it becomes a game of tracking myself through my choices of priorities; why do some things feel like a top priority while others don’t? How do I personally define the word “priority”? Is it motivated by my sense, or the reactions of others? Or the consequences of not taking care of it? Are my “essential” priorities in alignment with my goals? Or do they make up the obstacles to my goals?
It was a satisfying exercise to first sit down and list the subjects of my attention, both at work and at home, rank them by priority, and then to step back and look at the list and ask “Is this based on what I “do” or what I (would) choose to do with my time? I allow it to simmer in my psyche for a few days with my willingness to be patient in the process, and come back to the list wielding my edits now more fully informed, and without the impulse of judgement and persecution.
“No, the birds, cat and dog needs are not really first priority even though I may choose to feed them first thing in the morning.” While I tend to my personal needs later in the day, I see that actually, my personal care is my first priority and sets me up to hold space for others throughout my day from a place of abundance rather than scarcity. So my first edit? My needs are moved to the top. And yes, it does feel slightly weird… I tell myself “That’s because it is a different perspective than what I was taught, told, or perhaps what was modeled for me but not necessarily a wrong choice. Now I reclaim the right to choose for myself and accept the responsibility of that role.
I appreciate the following transcript channeled by Matias de Stephano in the Great Pyramid on 02222022. It feels foundational to this topic of conversation. As you read, please hear it with your heart:
I am the voice of the Creator
I come to sow the seed in every dimension.
It is going to be difficult Humans want reality to come to you.
You will never reach your expected reality.
You must be the I AM.
Enter the I AM.
It is not outside.
Look within.
It has been tried many times before but has always been tried from outside. We are Angels and are not here to save the planet; we are here to become Gods. We need to be the Creators so that they will know they are creators. Through us they understand that they are the creators.
We are the seeds.
My tears are the rivers.
Your tears will feed the seeds Let your tears flow.
The doors are now open. All of the dimensions are now open to you. This transformation is for the next generation.
I am your mother.
I am Mother Earth.
You are part of me.
We have waited so long and have gone through so much pain.
Welcome Home.
You are ready to receive the blessings.
This is for your awareness. For you to be aware. Not to save the planet. You have to be YOU.
Bad things are coming but the storm is good because that is how the seed will sow.
Your heart is your wings and you can fly. So open your wings. So Fly. FLY!
You are not ascending.
This is Paradise.