If you are feeling as though your emotions have been shifting in many directions, and your body seems to be achy or out of sorts; you are not alone! The month of May has delivered a mixture of intense energy to help move things that have been in place for some time. “Resistance is Futile” is a statement that comes to mind. Unrelated to how much you know or don’t know about astrology, healthy process, clear intentions – because we are all experiencing Life expressing through us.
And, it can be uncomfortable, challenging, illuminating, and wearing sometimes. So, in my case; I’ve been saying the Serenity Prayer quite often (God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can; and the wisdom to know the difference.), taking unscheduled timeouts in the middle of the day, noticing and allowing myself stillness rather than pushing through, and reaching out to teachers who are supportive, to help me use this energy for growth and healing.
The full moon on the 15th/16th invited us to recognize, acknowledge, and release our fears. In the Full Moon Ceremony circle I felt supported and witnessed in that purification process. And, once those fears were shifted, I was that much closer to the grief they were resting on!
Choosing to consciously dream, create and manifest things for myself I prefer and long for, has put me in touch with grief too. How long my dreams have been “M.I.A.”, on hold, and disassociated from me brings up an awareness that was tucked neatly away from my daily activity. Now it is squarely and clearly right in front of me!
Don’t get me wrong, I want to heal and know that feeling grief is actually a good sign – it means I can feel my heart and I’m touching into painful things that need tending. And, it’s still not comfortable. In other words, it needs respect, acknowledgement, space and accommodation. I want to stay authentic. And not say “Oh, I’m fine” as if I need to hide or disown my grief for my friends and loved ones to be more comfortable or for me to maintain an image of invulnerability.
I appreciate, that this is a shift in my family lineage. I realize it is a privilege, a luxury not afforded to my ancestors perhaps. And I appreciate that my choosing this “work” or path is benefiting those who came before me and those who will come after me whether I directly witness it or not. I know it!
So, if you are resonating with any of this share now or have ever had a similar experience, I invite you to be present with it; with yourself and with others in this group. I invite you to be willing to see it, feel it, and know that it is not the whole of who we are. We are witnessing not merging. We are loving not controlling. We are accepting what is and not resisting it. Our connection stronger, safer and more supportive as a result of our expanded truth
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