I am grateful for the opportunity to consider care-fully the ways in which I shape my daily experience; my choices. I have begun learning about my internal world and characters with the Internal Family Systems model and have been humbled by the directness and complexity that is in constant motion. Who’s “I” am I looking through when I experience an interaction? I am interested in learning the distinctions between my inner (overwhelmed) 12 year old and other parts inside; who look out for me when I am unable or unwilling to show up for myself. I want to reconcile the discord within myself and step into the full measure of my right to choose. (No Bad Parts, by Richard Schwartz) This personal work is allowing me to understand myself at a deeper level, open direct communication and reconciliation within for greater ease and wholeness.
In line with this exploration, I am very moved by another approach; Essentialism (book by the same title by Grep McKeown). As I read through the book, it becomes a game of tracking myself through my choices of priorities; why do some things feel like a top priority while others don’t? How do I personally define the word “priority”? Is it motivated by my sense, or the reactions of others? Or the consequences of not taking care of it? Are my “essential” priorities in alignment with my goals? Or do they make up the obstacles to my goals?
It was a satisfying exercise to first sit down and list the subjects of my attention, both at work and at home, rank them by priority, and then to step back and look at the list and ask “Is this based on what I “do” or what I (would) choose to do with my time? I allow it to simmer in my psyche for a few days with my willingness to be patient in the process, and come back to the list wielding my edits now more fully informed, and without the impulse of judgement and persecution.
“No, the birds, cat and dog needs are not really first priority even though I may choose to feed them first thing in the morning.” While I tend to my personal needs later in the day, I see that actually, my personal care is my first priority and sets me up to hold space for others throughout my day from a place of abundance rather than scarcity. So my first edit? My needs are moved to the top. And yes, it does feel slightly weird… I tell myself “That’s because it is a different perspective than what I was taught, told, or perhaps what was modeled for me but not necessarily a wrong choice. Now I reclaim the right to choose for myself and accept the responsibility of that role.
I appreciate the following transcript channeled by Matias de Stephano in the Great Pyramid on 02222022. It feels foundational to this topic of conversation. As you read, please hear it with your heart:
I am the voice of the Creator
I come to sow the seed in every dimension.
It is going to be difficult Humans want reality to come to you.
You will never reach your expected reality.
You must be the I AM.
Enter the I AM.
It is not outside.
Look within.
It has been tried many times before but has always been tried from outside. We are Angels and are not here to save the planet; we are here to become Gods. We need to be the Creators so that they will know they are creators. Through us they understand that they are the creators.
We are the seeds.
My tears are the rivers.
Your tears will feed the seeds Let your tears flow.
The doors are now open. All of the dimensions are now open to you. This transformation is for the next generation.
I am your mother.
I am Mother Earth.
You are part of me.
We have waited so long and have gone through so much pain.
Welcome Home.
You are ready to receive the blessings.
This is for your awareness. For you to be aware. Not to save the planet. You have to be YOU.
Bad things are coming but the storm is good because that is how the seed will sow.
Your heart is your wings and you can fly. So open your wings. So Fly. FLY!
You are not ascending.
This is Paradise.
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